Tying the Knot

Confessions of an Emotional Bride-to-Be

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“Are you excited?”

If only I had a dollar for every time someone asked me that within the last month…

To summarize the roller coaster of emotions I’ve experienced the last four weeks, I’ve used the following phrase, which I know brides before and those after me have perfected: “I’m excited/nervous/anxious.”

Basically, I’m a basket case of emotions.

I’m excited to spend the rest of my life with the man of my dreams and happy to celebrate the occasion with our family and closest friends.

I’m also nervous about everything coming together (for this, I blame my Type-A personality and OCD-like tendencies).

And Mercury in retrograde, the astrological phenom responsible for plans going awry, has not been kind: there’s been vendor mix-ups, DIY-gone-wrong (please see below), and a missing wedding band. But, thankfully, this awful phase is coming to an end. Praise Yeezus!

But if I’m being perfectly honest, I’m slightly anxious about what’s to come. Believe me, I have no second thoughts about marrying Jeff (I’d mentally decided he’d be my husband before we even started dating–don’t judge), but that’s a big responsibility-marriage.

And it’s a huge life change, not to mention the name change which is a whole other story.

Both of us come from parents with marriages that have been together seemingly forever, so divorce is not in our vocabulary. When you have a Plan B, I feel as though you’re more likely to call it quits when Plan A doesn’t go, well, according to plan.

But is love enough?

I know that no marriage (and nobody) is perfect. Relationships (romantic or otherwise) require work.

Are we “really” ready to get married? At 27, I’m five years older than my mom when she got married. Heck, she had given birth to me shortly after she turned 26!

While I’m nowhere ready to bring another life into the world, I am ready to say “I do” to Jeff and I can’t wait to see what’s in store for us as man and wife.

About L’Oreal & Jeff


L’Oreal and Jeff met in May 2008, became friends and went on their first date at the Pittsburgh Zoo & Aquarium in May 2011. They currently reside in Chicago and are planning a fall 2014 wedding in Baltimore with a LOT of purple details. Despite rooting for rival NFL teams, they love laughing and having fun together and look forward to getting married!